Where?

The funny thing is, I noticed all of these details with perfect clarity even though there was no light on him.  The only light was flooding in behind him from the bathroom.

He smiled.

It was a smile you felt.  Perfect teeth, perfect mood for a perfect night.

He said, "Time to go, Jake."

And I said, "Go where?"

"Time to go."

He turned slowly on his heel and walked out of Clark cabin.  I removed the covers, stepped down from my bunk and followed him out.  In the morning, I woke up on the bench next to the door.  I was seventeen.

Quite Lovely

For anyone who's ever watched the end of the street, go watch this.

In the cabin

...clicking on the floor.  I should describe him.

Victoria is tall.  Not touching the ceiling, but tall enough that he commands a certain amount of respect just by appearing in a room, as you would imagine a young general in the army.  He wears a three piece suit, black, topped with an English derby (bowler) hat.  His face is perfectly shaved and holds teeth that are as sharp and white as those of a wolf.  He looks about forty five but his eyes tell you he is much much older.  They are dark brown with speckles of yellow in the right one, something you'll only see a few inches from his face.  His hair, dark dark brown, is cut short and smoothed back beneath his hat.  His black shoes are shined with the sweat of Vietnam veterans.

When he walks, you can hear the creak and breath of the floorboards beneath his feet as well as a much more defined strike of his cane on the ground.  His cane.  Ebony wood, with a gold cap on the bottom where it strikes the floor.  At the top is a wolf's head, straight, not bent over giving his palm something to rest on.  The wolf is alert, jaws open, hungry.

I took a walk with an invisible Friend

Antimatter.  If something exists, there is something that doesn't exist.  If there is a force of existence, there is a force of non-existence.

So that we're clear, Victoria Asher is a man.  Yes, Victoria is a woman's name.  I know this.  You know this.  Victoria Asher is a man.

I first met Victoria when I was seventeen.  He came into my life and took me out of it.  The worst part is that all he did was ask.  It was late at night and I heard the sound of his cane...

Language (from pocketgamer)

As I was digging into iPhone games at lunch, I came across this little essay and immediately wished I had written it.  Funny, smart and young.  Wonderful.

The following is taken from pocketgamer (Spanner Spencer, 5/21/2009):

It's funny how a new games system can actually alter our speech patterns. As I hunt through the App Store now looking for free games, I come to realise how many new words I've been taught since it launched.

'App' seems to have been accepted as a preferable alternative to 'software', while fiddling with capitalisation is now perfectly acceptable as long as the capital letter is preceded with a lower case 'i'.

And even though my spell checker still doesn't like it, 'Lite' is undeniably the buzz word of the iGeneration (you see! Even I'm doing iT now). Even though it's not actually a word, its meaning is understood by every iPhone and iPod touch user across the world.

If something's 'Lite', it's free, but has reduced functionality and, for the most part, has a full version counterpart that you can pay for.

Of course, we could just say 'demo', but that's not yet been approved or copyrighted by Apple, so for the time being we're going to have to stick with Lite.

'Free' is a word that's not going to be so easily put aside, of course. 'Free iPhone games' is the phrase that brings a lot of budding iPhoners directly to Pocket Gamer, so I've spent the afternoon sifting through an iSea of Lite games to dig out some freebie gems just for you. I mean, iYou. Whatever.

Saturation

Lots of things have saturation points.  That's when nothing more can be absorbed or dissolved or sucked up.  It's when a sponge stops expanding and starts losing water as fast as it's collecting it.  It's when sugar can't be stirred into the tea anymore.  It's when your stomach is full.

No matter how much sleep I get, by Thursday (and even more so by Friday) I'm exhausted.  My patience is depleted and my brain starts to close down.  My manners disappear and I react instinctually and negatively.  Normally my spirit animal is a Koala.  Utilitarian (two thumbs per hand), often misunderstood (as bears), angry, petulant, sharp claws, pouch on their belly for carrying contraband, but for now I'll chew a leaf and take a nap.  Once I'm saturated, I become a monkey throwing feces.  I don't stop at insults, I bring in personal information and past experiences about my target and try to bury them deep in cement made of regret and embarrassment.

So then the question is, am I saturated yet?  No.  I'm alright for now.  But I squeeze and squeeze to get the water out and I'm still a little damp.

Luckily, there is medicine which addresses the symptoms: good coffee, drumming, sex.  Sleep and exercise work as well but since they're a part of my life anyway, more meds are needed.  When taken on a regular basis, any of these will keep you from blowing a fuse.  There is also a cure: Max.  Max is almost two years old.  He's a combination of Border Collie, Aussie Shepherd and psychic.  He cures all and he's all mine this weekend.

One more night, one more day, then it's off to Fishers to desalinate.

Pins and Needles or Panic Attacks

"Goodmorning!"  That's what I want to exclaim to the world.  Or at least to the other people in my office.  But I don't think I can look anyone in the eye.  Because I fell on my face last night walking from the bathroom to the bedroom.  Because my legs were paralyzed.  Because I was sick.  And I fell asleep on the toilet.

Buffalo chicken is delicious.  So is Chinese food.  Which one provided the Ides of March in May last night?  Probably both.

After a wonderful dinner with sister and mom, I took a cab home, unpacked from a fantastic weekend (see, "Three from Dudley"), and got into bed before eleven.  At twelve fifteen, midst a nightmere of epic proportions involving kids from middle school, kids from summercamp and kids from France, I woke up thinking my stomach was tearing itself in two.  So I went into the bathroom and waited for the inevitable.  I'll spare you the details but after it was over, I was completely exhausted from the experience.  I closed the toilet seat and sat on it with my head in my hands and my elbows on my knees -- remaining in the bathroom just in case I felt ill again.  Sometime later, I stood up and walked to my bedroom.

Then my legs froze up.  It felt like there was sand in my veins and every muscle twitch sent bone zapping tingles through my body.  "What the hell is this?" I thought.  Then I looked at my clock.  It was 1:30 am.  I had been asleep in the bathroom for over an hour cutting off all circulation to my legs the entire time.  Shit shit shit.  Not knowing quite what to do, I decided I may as well let myself fall over and crawl into bed.

Some people have dreams where they're naked at work.  Others have dreams they never graduated College.  I don't have those dreams but I do fall asleep in the bathroom and crawl around in the middle of the night.